Friday, 24 August 2007
We got Merlin back from the vet on Wednesday - after his small operation to release the pressure of the swelling. He was overjoyed to be home - but quite tiered.
I took him back this morning for a check up - and the vet says he now has to have the operation to remove the saliva gland - and has booked him in for Tuesday. I least I feel a bit re-assured as now he has had one anesthetic he should survive another - I once had a dog die as a reaction to anesthetic. But I still hate the whole thing - I hate that I cannot explain to him what is happening and that it will all be OK.
Another thing that has happened this week is that my youngest son - who has been staying here for the past three weeks or so - has left - and is going to live in Denmark with his girlfriend. One of the things - even after all this years - that I never get used too are the feelings that Mothers have for their children - I am so excited for him - for the opportunity to live in a different country and experience everything that has to offer. Also so concerned for him - that all will be well with him - and that he wont feel frightened, or alone - that he knows that he can return here to Wales if things don't work out. Holding these two sets of emotions, for me, always creates tension - and it is at times like these that I should keep away from work in progress (and credit cards) but this afternoon I went into the studio.
It should have been a gift - an unexpected afternoon in the studio - instead I think I may of wreaked the "Standing Stone" piece - as I put it under the sewing machine and stitched hard!